Why I Chose to Study & Teach Tantra
It was the early summer of 2016 when I found myself lost, disconnected, and empty. I was living an enjoyable life, but a life with no real purpose besides to try and be happy. I’ve always been very aware of my energy and that at times I would be filled with explosive radiance and then burn out, being left drained… I didn’t know what this meant all my life, but I had hopes of learning how to control and find sustainable balance. That simple desire lead me into a world that makes so much sense for me that it makes me want to cry because I finally have the answers I’ve sought my entire life.
I thought I just needed a vacation… right? That will fix me. Google Search > Exotic Vacations > Result: Tantra Retreats. Google can be the beginning of so many interesting paths. I didn’t know what Tantra was, but my curiosity was spiked and two days from that very day was an Intro to Tantra Workshop in Santa Monica, CA lead by my since role model, Dawn Cartwright.
I modestly walked into that workshop and left forever changed. I felt my energy literally move, dance, and create a fire inside that awakened me in ways I never foresaw, but am beyond grateful for. Since then I have followed Dawn Cartwright for weeklong retreats in Ireland two years in a row and followed Layla Martin to Mexico for an all women’s tantric retreat. Tantra retreats are what I fell in love with and got me to do Layla Martin’s Certification Course to become a Love, Sex, and Relationship Coach in the first place, considering the essence and lessons are rooted in tantra.
If you don’t know me that well I will tell you I’ve always been a very spiritual person. I’ve always been a very sexual person ~ blessed with no shame surrounding sexuality as I grew up, I can be my most expressive, free, and authentic divine lover of life, myself, and people. I’m also someone who believes human connection and connection to everything (animals, nature, our moments) to be the most important thing that we can cherish and tap into.
Tantra turns out to be a non-denominational spiritual path that embraces the dark with the light and that see’s sexuality as a sacred and beautiful part of our whole mind-body-soul wellness. Spirituality and sexuality combined?! A lifestyle and career of helping people connect deeper with themselves, other people, and everything around them…? I clearly found my path.
I spent 6 weeks at Samma Karuna in Koh Phangan, Thailand doing their 200 hour Tantra Teacher Certification before a 2 week Teacher Internship.
It was a journey through the emotions, since one must go on the journey themselves before they can guide others with great care and compassion.
Read my blog post "Tantra is not sex tricks" and listen to my episode "Tantric Affection: Intro to Tantra" on my Podcast "Make Love" to learn more about what Tantra IS and is NOT.